
I'm definitely not a writer but i'd like to just get a few things off my chest. I just can't seem to understand why bad things happen to good people. Why men want to hit women. Those things in life just don't make sense to me! It infuriates me, especially when it is happening to some i love and care for. There is nothing that I can do! I feel helpless. I know she is hurting, I can feel it, but still I can't fix it! DAMN! Idk, i just don't know. Life isn't fair, well that's an understatement if i've ever heard one! It just makes me sick knowing what some people are forced to go through because of the bastards that they fell in love with. I'm a nurse, I know all the "information" about domestic violence, all the "things a woman should do" but u know what i've learned most of all, what I've really started to understand, the books try to tell you that it's hard for an abused woman to leave, they tell you of all the ways to get out and of how hard it is to move away and to stand up for yourself, but there is NEVER ANY WAY TO REALLY KNOW HOW HARD IT IS UNLESS YOU ARE IN IT YOURSELF! I have no idea what my girl is going through, and that kills me! I am a fixer, you see. That's what I do, I fix things, try to make people happy. Try to keep the boat from rocking, try to keep everyone together, but in this situation, it's something that I cannot fix, that I cannot make better, that I cannot make go away and it honestly pisses me off!!!!! I'm emotionally attached to this situation because i love her and there is nothing that I can do to get myself out. HOnestly nothing that I WOULD do anyways, I can't leave her alone in this. I just don't know how to deal with it. I don't know how to make the hatred for this son of a bitch stop consuming me. UGH!!! Well, as you can tell I am no writer and I ramble on, but writing my feelings down have always helped me overcome them or find a way to resolve a situation, so I am thankful to have been introduced this site that encourages me to express myself. Thanks for those who read this.
Smr172